Light and Excellence

For those of you who read my last post about not giving up or are just really struggling right now, I have some quotes for you! These are wise quotes for those that need it the most! You are strong, you are worth it, you are important. Good luck finding the best one that works for you, and if you need more than one, that's okay too! Website Used: http://www.dancelightly.com/never-give-up.php You must do the things you think you cannot do. - Eleanor Roosevelt Believe that life is worth living and your belief will help create the fact. - William James Most people give up just when they're about to achieve success. They quit on the one yard line. They give up at the last minute of the game one foot from a winning touchdown. - Ross Perot Those who believe they can do something and those who believe they can't are both right. - Henry Ford Let us not pray to be sheltered from dangers but to be fearless when facing them. - Rabindranath Tagore The futur...

Thought it was time to write another blog, since tons have happened in these past 5 months!!! Recap on my life July- My birthday month!!! Turned eighteen... not much else to say. August-Enjoyed my last few days working at Potbelly before they closed down and before I moved on to another chapter of my life...college! Moved out on the 19th and thought it was the best decision I ever made. Until my boyfriend and family had to leave me and then I had a total breakdown. Living with new people you have never met in this life is hard, and it's hard to be comfortable with that! September- Started school, made new friends, got one of my friends to become a convert to the church which somewhat attracted me to missionary work. Started working at NES Utah and becoming familiar with college life. October & November-Celebrated the boyfriends ninteeth birthday, enjoyed a wonderful live session of general conference and most importantly learned that I need to LOVE MYSELF...

Hi guys!!! So in the last month I graduated from high school and I got a boyfriend again and I know what you're thinking, you guys are going to break up eventually. I was afraid to fall in love again and especially with someone who was going to become an LDS missionary someday. But he makes me so happy and he's my missing puzzle piece. Don't believe me? He gave me a PROMISE RING. Dudes, we have only been dating for a little over a month but we feel like this is so right and that we were meant for each other. No I am not getting married anytime soon but it means I actually have a possibility of getting married someday! Oh boy! Life is oh so good with my adventure buddy and we've made so many memories in the past month than I could ever imagine possible. Without him, I feel like I wouldn't be able to grow in the knowledge of my scriptures or communicate to God in prayer as much as I have been. We do couple scripture study every night ever since we started dating and ...

Wow I'm such good blogger! I love reading what I have said in the past. Anyways lets get down to business! Graduation for me is coming up in a short 18 days! I can believe it because it feels like the time is so slow but its actually almost here. Can't wait for what life brings me after I graduate HS.  While being in High School I've learned this lesson: It is okay to not be okay all the time. I've cried way too much in High School and it's been an emotionally journey for me. Hormones are real. And so are girls attitudes.  I guess why I say this is because these past few months have been harder than when I lost my boyfriend, but they have been a lot easier to heal from. My favorite guard director left our team unexpectedly because they were dealing with a ton of crap in their life. I understood why they had to leave, but I was angry that they left without saying goodbye. I miss them so much. But I was able to move on from that trial only because I had faith th...

Happy New Year! 2017 is going to be a great one for me! Finally graduating high school and learning how to be an adult! Haha, ok more stressful than anything but I'm willing to try it out! I don't really like making new years resolutions because I fail at them everyday, I make mistakes every day but I keep enduring. So what I'm gonna do is continue to be my best self everyday, always improving, always changing. I like looking back and seeing what I accomplished and then getting better. I'm not going to use the word perfect as much as possible. Excellence will take its place as I try to do everything with excellence rather than perfection. Perfection is not something that will make me happy, I'll just keep trying and never reach that goal because perfect is not what humans can accomplish. Excellence can be accomplished though, and that's by giving it everything you got! I'm excited to see where 2017 will take me, because this really is the beginning o...

July 30th was not only the week after my birthday but the hardest day of my life. I tried to end my life. I tried to kill myself. Why am I telling you my story? Because I'm still alive. There are things that day and everyday that changed my reasoning for not leaving the planet the way I did. 1. My parents reaction. I could imagine the horror of seeing their creation, their child, just dead because she didn't feel like she was good enough for this world. Who wants to live like that? Being told they can't do something or feel worthless? It's not a good feeling, I know. 2. Believe it or not, I have friends. Sometimes I don't call some of them my friends cause they're not the most trustworthy and loyal people I know. However I know they care enough about me to be sad if I died. I was talking to a friend about my feelings of suicide and he told me things that has helped me stay alive to this day. Thanks my friend, you matter to me. 3. I had a horrible month with ...

Colorguard to me is like a blood donation. Why? Because I love donating blood!!! I've only done it twice, but as a donor I have saved lives through giving my blood. In guard you're giving your spinning talent and abilities and performing them in front of a bunch of people that actually understand what you're doing and appreciate it. You change their life through your performance and kewl tricks. Now let me tell ya how the process of donating blood is like a Colorguard Season: 1. You wait in the waiting room for like ever and they tell ya to read papers and stuff. Then they take you in to test your blood pressure and hemoglobin... In guard this is like the audition, whether you make the team or not. It's really nerve wracking and stressful sometimes but it is worth getting to the next step. 2. Donating blood. You sit on a comfy chair and they tell ya to squeeze a ball and they clean your arm and put the needle in and it sucks your blood!!! This can relate to gua...