Light and Excellence

Colorguard to me is like a blood donation. Why? Because I love donating blood!!! I've only done it twice, but as a donor I have saved lives through giving my blood. In guard you're giving your spinning talent and abilities and performing them in front of a bunch of people that actually understand what you're doing and appreciate it. You change their life through your performance and kewl tricks. Now let me tell ya how the process of donating blood is like a Colorguard Season: 1. You wait in the waiting room for like ever and they tell ya to read papers and stuff. Then they take you in to test your blood pressure and hemoglobin... In guard this is like the audition, whether you make the team or not. It's really nerve wracking and stressful sometimes but it is worth getting to the next step. 2. Donating blood. You sit on a comfy chair and they tell ya to squeeze a ball and they clean your arm and put the needle in and it sucks your blood!!! This can relate to gua...

Ugh!!! Life has been so so hard guys!!! I didn't know anything inspirational to say until I went back and looked at my old blogs.  Not trying to brag but DANG! I should become a motivational speaker or something!!!  For those of you who don't know... My rabbit died on Independence Day (AKA last week) and it was the most gut wrenching and heart breaking experience of my life. Especially cause my boyfriend and I hadn't been a couple for a week. (Gosh if I had guard these past two weeks... I would have LOST IT!)  what happened is that I got home from work and about 20 minutes later he passed to the other side. And I as I was holding Wilbur in my arms and sobbing uncontrollably I thought back to his life and how much he had changed me. He helped me be less depressed. I would sit by his cage where he would be all the time and just pet him forever. Be cheered me up. However I'm sure he did not feel the same way about me. He would always be terrified when I would hold him. I s...

Winterguard season was a blast!!! From all the painful to the blissful and unforgettable memories, it was one of the hardest seasons yet! It was probably because I came back after I took a season off! I was on the B guard at first. But around Christmas time they asked me to be a part of the Open guard. Soon after that. I tried to run as fast as my legs could carry me! (Physically and mentally!) but I caught up! At our last rehearsal on Saturday we were doing a run through and I wasn't panting and breathing hard! That was a big accomplishment for me! Also winning and becoming state champs was a really big deal too! Ahhhh!!! What a great season, I loved it soo soooooo much <3  Now I'm going to try to write the words that are from our show!!!! We this people on a small and lonely planet,  traveling through casual space  passed aloof stars  across the way of indifferent Suns to a destination where all signs tell us it is possible and imperative  that we discover ...

Wherefore ye must press forward with a steadfastness in Christ having a brightness of hope and a love of God and of all men. 2 Nephi 31:20 👌 ( didn't write the rest of it cause I forgot it... But it's a great verse.) I think of my days experience kind of like the pioneers trek.  They had to leave so many of their dead behind without proper burials. :( it makes me so sad to think of their gruesome sacrifices...  And for me my sacrifice was the natural man. (Oh hey wait!!! I fight that everyday!)  Yesterday was especially hard though because after 6 months and 6 days....my boyfriend broke up with me.  And I need this trial. I need it because I'm weak. As strong as I may seem in my words and actions I'm constantly praying for the lord to give me strength. Because everyday is hard, especially yesterday.  And I'm probably gonna be a hermit in my house for like a week now because I need to cry, I need to be alone.  But at the same time I'm a...

Dear Grandpa,  I wish I could tell you in person all the things I've done in the past ten years since your passing to the other side. I'll start by saying I'm a teenager now and I'm gonna be a senior in High School this year. That's kinda terrifying because everyone expects me to figure out what I'm gonna do in real life... Right now. :P  I also got a boyfriend, and if you were here I don't know how you feel about that. I think everyone's kind of shocked. They don't want me to be in this relationship because they say it won't last , I won't marry him, etc. it's just all negative and it's tearing me down. I do have my mom on my side though, she likes my boyfriend. His family likes me too, or so I think.  I got my YW medallion and I've always thought you'd be proud of me for that. I accomplished that but yet Carly can still cook and clean better than me.  I'm a lot like my mom. I don't like to admit it but I am. I like t...

This break has been unforgettable!!!! What started off as a good week has kind of turned into a rough and depressing one for me.  My sweet boyfriend had to say goodbye to his angel puppy today and to see him grieve is so painful for me. I haven't really experienced the grieving process before because either I was too young or I didn't know the person/ thing that was dying. But I knew this amazing dog, Maisy.  And as I've been crying probably like a ton in the past 36 hours I kept thinking why am I the one crying? My boyfriends supposed to be crying! Yet he still hugged me and comforted me even though it SHOULD HAVE been me. I need to be strong, for him.  So I have a question for you all...  How do you help someone you love when they are grieving? It's so hard to see them in emotional pain. I just don't know what to do.  I need help, I need guidance... Any of you that have lost someone or something I have a better understanding that losing someone or something is...

Today was a great day. I slept in I did the dishes, I practiced and improved my Colorguard skills, I had an amazing night at work and I found my prom dress!!!  Trying on dresses was very stressful, my mom picked out a few that were meh, and others were immodest and it was really hard! Then I showed the dress rental lady a pic of the dress I saw on their website and oh my gosh it is beautiful!!  They had the dress and my oh my it for like a glove! I put it on and was like yep this dress wins. Not only is it my favorite color it has bling and it is poofy like a princesses dress!!! :D  Ahhh prom is already going to be so amazing I know it! I'm going with the most amazing young man and he's gonna make it the best night of my life!!!  I love to think of the hsm song "a night to remember" because I have been waiting my whole life for dating. Not prom in particular but dating it's just to sooo fun! If you go and date multiple people... You will see all the different fish...