Make sure to always make others happy!

Ugh!!! Life has been so so hard guys!!! I didn't know anything inspirational to say until I went back and looked at my old blogs. 


Not trying to brag but DANG! I should become a motivational speaker or something!!! 

For those of you who don't know... My rabbit died on Independence Day (AKA last week) and it was the most gut wrenching and heart breaking experience of my life. Especially cause my boyfriend and I hadn't been a couple for a week. (Gosh if I had guard these past two weeks... I would have LOST IT!)  what happened is that I got home from work and about 20 minutes later he passed to the other side. And I as I was holding Wilbur in my arms and sobbing uncontrollably I thought back to his life and how much he had changed me. He helped me be less depressed. I would sit by his cage where he would be all the time and just pet him forever. Be cheered me up. However I'm sure he did not feel the same way about me. He would always be terrified when I would hold him. I swear he hated me. But when he looked into my eyes for the last time I think all that hate faded. 

Why do we hate? I have an answer... Agency.  God gave it to us so we can be free to choose what mood we are in, who to date, what pet to take home, whether to go to school or stay home (well I guess that's not our choice until AFTER we've graduated from High School) but most and all of our choices our based on agency. 


And when I've thought about hate I've turned to Alex. Remember him? My dear sweet used to bee boyfriend who I thought all these things about??? Well I still feel heartbroken and I've taken the wrong turn on him and am trying to get rid of him completely. (No! Not execution just like never seeing him again...) is it because I hate him? No. I'm just a very emotional teenage girl who doesn't feel like he cares that I exist anymore. 
And that's my agency. I think it's the advesary telling me to do this. Even though in my heart I know it's wrong. 

If I could give you any positive advice right now it would be to listen to the spirit... When you have doubt in your mind it's always the devil. When it feels good I siste its always the Holy Ghost. So I'm gonna repent and change my heart and try better to make Alex happy rather than myself. Because tbh I still love him, even if he doesn't love me anymore. 


Love your enemies. As in those you don't get along with. I'm so thankful for my mother because whenever I leave the door for work she says "Make others happy today!!!" And at Potbelly that's like our #1 goal so of course I need to follow it in order to keep my job!!! :D so yeah. :) I



I'm so grateful for the happy people in this life. I hope that I can learn from their experience and be happy all the time too. Even though I lost my rabbit, I don't have a boyfriend and I passed out after giving blood, etc. Trials are ready amazingly difficult and I'm starting to see that more and more everyday. 

But if you just try to fake it till you make it and be happy for others, you'll start to be happy too. -My mom ❤️

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