Light and Excellence

Today was a great day. I slept in I did the dishes, I practiced and improved my Colorguard skills, I had an amazing night at work and I found my prom dress!!!  Trying on dresses was very stressful, my mom picked out a few that were meh, and others were immodest and it was really hard! Then I showed the dress rental lady a pic of the dress I saw on their website and oh my gosh it is beautiful!!  They had the dress and my oh my it for like a glove! I put it on and was like yep this dress wins. Not only is it my favorite color it has bling and it is poofy like a princesses dress!!! :D  Ahhh prom is already going to be so amazing I know it! I'm going with the most amazing young man and he's gonna make it the best night of my life!!!  I love to think of the hsm song "a night to remember" because I have been waiting my whole life for dating. Not prom in particular but dating it's just to sooo fun! If you go and date multiple people... You will see all the different fish...

   Yes I am sorry but as an individual I struggle with self worth. Sometimes I am amazed I got my Young Woman medallion because I still don't feel like what I do for other people makes a difference. I feel ugly at school but try to smile and embrace it. I'm slower at processing things in my mind yet I'm in AP classes. And it is stressing me out!!!! All this negative energy I've been having it just keeps getting to me!  I was recently having a conversation with my boyfriend about this topic and what he said to me just changed my perspective about 360 degrees  And God wouldn't have you any other way is the part that stands out the most. He cares about what God sees in me because Gods perspective is eternal!!!!! Why do I always keep forgetting that? I need to stop living now and see that I have a future! (I have an amazing boyfriend. If you know him... Just give him a hug, he loves them 😝😉)  Then I thought back to another experience where this girl (won't state h...